Butterfly Visit

Heart fluttering like the wings
of that white/yellow butterfly
that follows me around as I walk
in the garden.

I lay me down on the viridity of grass.
fragrant from recent mowing.
Looking up, I fall into the azure summer sky
while green spears poke through my gown.

If it was night,
I could ascend into a field of stars.
But now, all I have to bounce on
are the soft shimmering clouds.

Holding this heart,
tenderly,
I sing to it a lullaby,
Soothing it like a swaddled child.

Kittens are frolicking nearby,
some are playing hide and seek,
peeking through shrubbery
watching while I sigh.

My butterfly friend beckons.
Wants to be followed.
I'm not ready for that,
I've  more songs yet to sing.

 

 ©Ellen Pepper 2026

Sterling Silver Starlight

Sterling silver starlight
dappled the limpid lake waters
as we sat on the sand 
 laughing about silly things.

When we were young.

Then you mentioned Janice West,
I'll never forget that moment.
You said  she was so fine 
and that you
wanted her in your family.

Something shattered inside me,
I bowed my head and hugged my knees.
You saw my sadness and chuckled,
I thought I'd die.

Then you put your arm around me,
pulled me close and simply said
 you thought she'd wed your brother -
'cause they'd be a perfect match.

We were young.

Five years later, we sat with our baby
on the same stretch of sand,
the day after a storm with debris all 'round.
We sang folk songs and lullabies.

Ten years later,
there were five of us on the beach,
 eroded from all the wild storms,
but we still had a fire and we sang.

We were not as young.

Another ten years passed
 and we sat alone on our beach.
The children were older and  out with friends.
We were glad to be  alone,
like when we were young.

And then twenty years passed quickly.
The lake was stormy with strong waves,
We spoke of many things,
preparing ourselves,
should one leave before the other.

We were no longer young.

And then the day came that you were gone.
I sat alone on the beach
looking up at the sterling silver starlight,
knowing you were up there...
without me.



©Ellen Pepper 2026

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LOVE IS YOUR ANCHOR

 Floating on the surface of life,
feeling too deeply to settle down.
Your heart has no anchor
you’re drifting
drifting without love,
on the Sargasso Sea.

Like the Ancient Mariner but,
for you, it lasts
year after year, year after year,
You’re stuck barely breathing -
Like an oil painting
on an artist’s canvas.

Why did you slay the albatross?
He could have led you away from
the icy Antarctic of the heart.
How long will you bear him
hanging from your neck?

You’re all alone,
surrounded by the corpses of the lost.
Your life held in the balance
by a nightmare’s fierce woman.

Love will come to you when
you’ve opened your mind
to the beauty 
and the light.
And come away from the dark of your mind.

Your trance will fade and your ship will sail.
You’ll see the lighthouse of your Home.
Then you’ll breathe your joy, and
You’ll find that love is your anchor.
Love is your anchor.

©Ellen Pepper 2026

WHEN I'M HAPPY

There were no tears 
when you were taken away.
No tears while you were stuck in chains.
No crying at your return.

I only cry when I'm happy now.

You never said what happened.
You didn't notice the pain.
You did what you had to do.
I guess you'll never explain.

I only cry when I'm happy now.

 That Tuesday morning
when I saw you were gone,
I stood at the window,
your bike still on the lawn.

I only cry when I'm happy now.

Now you're living at Belmont.
You wear rather fine clothes.
You sneer at the poor,
cuz they've nothing you want.

I only cry when I'm happy now.

I have my own space here.
I never call out.
Amusing self daily,
I live in the now. 

I only cry when I'm happy now.
I laugh only too well.
My friends are the angels,
Who saved me from hell.

I only cry when I'm happy now.

 ©Ellen Pepper 2026

 

FOOLED

 It's 3 in the morning, you're restless beside me.
Our bed so silent and sad,
Your sleepy hands reach out to hold me,
and I freeze.

We haven't spoken in days -
 since your phone lit up
 with an incoming call 
from Willa, my best friend.

I asked you why she'd be calling you 
when you were supposed to be at work.
You bridled and shouted that I had been spying.
That's when I lost my words.

We haven't spoken in days.

Willa denied that something was up.
I could tell she was hiding the truth.
She wouldn't come clean, she kept saying to wait.
I walked away feeling betrayed.

We haven't spoken in days. 

Heartache and anger were ruling my heart.
I vowed to leave you again.
Started packing my bags and finding a place.
Knowing that this time I wouldn't be back.

We haven't spoken in days.

Then yesterday morning, you asked to meet me -
at the cafe in which we first met.
Puzzled, I said sure, and thought that was strange,
but then I knew that we'd be saying goodbye.

We hadn't spoken in days.

 All day, I kept myself busy,
Not wanting to think of the rest of my life.
I drove to the cafe, sad and scared,
And there you were at the door, waiting.

You smiled, and my heart soared,
I missed you already,
We walked through inside the cafe, and...
Shouts of "SURPRISE!" shook me up.

We hadn't spoken in days.
You and Willa had planned a party.
Nothing nefarious was going on and
I wasted time worrying for nothing.

When the hubbub settled, 
you smiled at me and sang our song,
"Soul deep,
choose love over fear,
a loyal heart is true."

We hadn't spoken in days.

©Ellen Pepper 2026

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Your presence lingers.

Your presence lingers.
Though you rode away to fight the war -
your stallion rearing up in anticipation -
your heart stayed here at home.

Your presence lingers,

Though the persistence of  conflict
has torn you away from loved ones.
Images of you are burnt in my mind.

Your rough hands with tender touch.
Your eyes glinting with mischief.
Your wild, tousled hair reflecting the sun.
The way you threw back your head  in laughter.

Your presence lingers.

Your name is spoken every day.
No message has arrived.
Rumours have you at the front.

Another day has come and gone.
The battle scenes are noised about
by those who left and returned.
It’s been so long since you left...

Your presence lingers,

Your clothes haven't lost your scent.
We don’t know what to expect.
Some say the foreign King’s forces triumph.

The word came this morn,
 our army has been defeated.
That you’ve been lost in battle,
and will never come home again, 
never.
Still...
Your presence lingers.

STEPPING AWAY

 

Where can you go,
where the news is not?
How to find peace while bombs fall?
Where is relief from the horrors?
It's not easy to step away from the news.

You find your dreams haunted by sorrow.
You run to the forest of happier thoughts.
Yet, the images persist and grow.
Your soul cries out. Your eyes spill tears.
It's not easy to step away from your mind.

How can you calm your soul?
You try to end despair with levity,
but that's too hollow.
You try to escape into nostalgia,
 but it's not easy to evade the now.

Where can you go,
where the news is not?
What can erase despair?
When will relief arise at the end of the day?
it's not easy to step away.

©Ellen Pepper 2026

The Time for Forgiveness...

When the shouting ends.
The tears stop falling.
The rage internalizes.
They've said it all.
The time for forgiveness has come.

He said,
She said,
Neither one agreed.
He despised her excuses.
She condemned his cruelty.
The time for forgiveness has come.

They did the dance of anger,
betrayal,
and lies.
They exhausted excuses.
The time for forgiveness has come.

In future years, they'll wonder,
"Was it all in vain?"
Thinking back and fumbling facts,
nostalgia softens pain.
The time for forgiveness has come.

They meet for coffee,
just to talk.
So many years gone by.
Time to atone for failures,
The time for forgiveness has come.

Later, after absolution,
they walk away in silence -
regretting time lost to ego and pride.
They vow to love again.
The time for forgiveness has come.



 ©Ellen Pepper 2026

Nobody knows your name...

 Nobody knows your name.
Still, you're trying so hard.
So damn hard, to be seen.
You wander the streets
 with your heart on your sleeve,
Hoping somebody calls your name.

Lord, nobody knows your name.
Nobody knows your name.

And nobody knows your heart,
do they?
Nobody knows your song.
Nobody sees you walking,
Nobody sees you dance.

Lord, nobody knows your name.
Nobody knows your name.

My earnest friend,
you work so hard.
You lay down the tracks,
every day in your studio.
But nobody knows your name.

Lord, nobody knows your name.
Nobody knows your name.

One day soon,
after all these years,
your dream will come true,
your name will find fame.

And everyone will know your name.
You find your talent will bring you fame.
Your words will be known, 
Your songs will be sung.

And everyone will know you,
Some will love you,
Some will shun you,
But everyone will know your name.


 ©Ellen Pepper 2026

Lullabye for the Little One

 

Come to me, my little one,
I'll hold you while you sleep. 
Come to me, little one,
We have dreams to keep.

We've spent the day together,
Stayed in -  away from weather.
We played with song and toys.
We laughed with all the joys.

And now, you'll want to rest a while.
Close your eyes with contented smile.

Mama tucks your blanket in,
and Papa kisses you on your chin.
We love you so, little one.
Be cozy, as your sleep is won.

And now, your eyes are drooping down;
your tiny hands are folded.
You snuggle deeper under cover;
there's no need for us to hover.

Sleep tight, little one.
Tomorrow will come soon.

©Ellen Pepper 2026